Thank God It's Over

I survived 2006. I'm thinking about printing up t-shirts. The year was bad. All of it. From the beginning to the end.

2007 is going to be a year of picking up the pieces. Pieces of my sanity. Pieces of my marriage. Pieces of my living situation. Pieces of ... me.

I was hopeful going into 2006, but I'm throwing myself into 2007 with gusto. If it turns out to be as bad as 2006? I won't make it.

Ginger

Constitution and Religion

"Senator, when you took your oath of office, you placed your hand on the Bible and swore to uphold the Constitution. You didn't place your hand on the Constitution and swear to uphold the Bible."

-Jamie Raskin, testifying Wednesday, March 1, 2006 before the Maryland Senate Judicial Proceedings Committee in response to a question from Republican Senator Nancy Jacobs about whether marriage discrimination against gay people is required by "God's Law."

I love this man. --Ginger

Ponderings on Relationships

I've noticed recently that I have been receiving more pleasure (not THAT kind ) from my online relationships than I have from my real life relationships. That my online friends don't want me to be anything I am not. That they like me just for being me not for what I do.

We consider what we "do" as the same as who we "are". That's just not the case. What we do can be a product of who we are, but it doesn't define "the individual".

So I'm left with flesh-friends who want me to "do" to "be", and online-friends who want me to "be" to "be".

Then I wonder why I value my online friends so much.

Ginger, back to studying Eastern religions again

Fleeting Joy

You know what's worse than being depressed all the time? Having fifteen minutes of non-hypomanic joy. And then someone saying something that crashes you. It would have been better not to have felt the joy at all. It had been SO long since I'd been actually happy. Going from "eh" to depressed isn't much of a fall. But going from joy to the dregs makes you feel like your whole body is broken.

Ginger

My Thoughts On Most Online Romantic Relationships

Summed up in a lovely song:

http://locker.myyearbook.com/backpackfiles/2005/12/25/20/other43af5ad5455d2.swf

Enjoy.

Ginger

Holiday Season This >< Close To Being Over

I promise I will write of the holiday exploits that included going back to my parents' house for Christmas - after spending a month there with Katrina - having my brother still staying with us and all the other festive holiday crap. I want Monday to be here. I'm ready for a year that doesn't end in 5.

Ginger out

What is it about Mondays?

It's not like I have a job other than professional crazy person. So why do Mondays still suck?

I thought I had an appointment with my new psychiatrist today. Went to the office like a good girl, holding panic in check. To find out that my appointment is TOMORROW morning. Great.

So on to my next task which was going to Walmart. We were out of food. We had parts of meals, but no actual meals. No snacks. No milk. Panic attack in the cereal aisle. So I wound up needing two carts - which I had to handle myself - to get all the food to stock the kitchen so Mr. Ginger doesn't starve while I'm at my parents for Christmas. Why am I leaving him alone for Christmas? It's his PRESENT. Since the evacuation, he has had zero time alone in the house. He's going to get at LEAST three days by himself with a stocked kitchen and video games. I will not be calling him unless I break a bone or blood is gushing out of a head wound made by a herd of wild buffalo trampling me.

So I now have the song "Tell My Why I Don't Like Mondays" going through my head.

Did watch Hitchhiker's Guide To The Galaxy tonight. HIGHLY recommended. Time went so fast I thought I was in an improbablity drive!

Ginger out